I am smoking a cigarette in times of covid. A bit of a big non non if anyone wants to heal. The living room is dark with only one lamp, a red lamp, light up. My life, looking back , was interesting in the last 15 years.  Before that, many interesting events make it interesting looking back. Judy asked that she may be as crazy as she needed to learn to be free. It helped her immensely to let go of the bad learnings early in her life. Crazy wisdom, which took a while to be brought to the open of my consciousness, is always God sent.