The smokes are being smoked. I am extremely tired. If only I could quit smoking anything, i would recuperate very quickly. But it is as if I don't have any strenght to fight my body needs anymore. I truly have an 85 years old body. I am old, old, old. Worn down by years of abuses, I have to actually just enjoy being tired and sick all the time now. Read on Ava Gardner's last words today, in 1990 or whenever she passed: 'I'm so tired'. Yes, Ava, that sums up a human life.