So yea, Alex from Austria, you see how tedious the last 25 years have been. At least the last 10-15 were spent actually healing, even when I kept finding out about the worst sort of people on earth.  It is just that: my state of joy or happiness comes and goes depending on what is going on at the time. A day has so many 'moments' and with meditation, it is rather safe and smooth sailing. 

Om tare tuttare ture svoha

GREEN TARA MANTRA