Yes and I don't know why. The morning is mellow ad mantras for precarious times are playing, hindu mantras with Deva Premal. I will go smoke a cigarette on the porch and dedicate today's merit and virtues to the enlightenment of all sentient beings.
UPDATE
I am back. I was beyond nuts about two weeks ago.
It is scary for my safety.
The lack of booze has helped a lot recently.
I dont know what else to say. I made crazy promises of millions of dollars to people dont I dont have a penny to my name.
It is all madness. I think it is triggered by my traumas from 2006-2007.