The life following my marriage to sweetheart alan I will mistreat so much....I get ONE thing in that life: an enlightened mother. I did say to God many many times publcily that I wanted ONE childhood as a girl with amazing mother. In fact I think he tempts me so very much next life as a good man a bit nutty with his wife  as to warrant for Himself to give me such a hard life given I get an enlightened mother. But I asked that of Him. In this lifetime.