And I will be severely punished in my next marriage after that, to the crackpot. I am way way too hateful with my wife in my next marriage. Apparentely,that is common for fucked up douche bag men....I am about to find out.

The wife is a very very nice lady. I dont know if she is much enlightened.

She will go be born in a bad childhood and I will fuck her up even more with my crazy rules.

sufferings means we are gaining merit.

God is silent as to how bad I will fuck up this lovely marriage and life where , truly, I am a god and it gets on everyone's nerve.....inclduing my very own nerves, i do hope. 

This anouk life was so fucking modest saved for the travels and owning a house by now.

Truly, I loved the moderate living and a bit of everything.

Except whoredom.

I was NEVER ever tempted all throughout my life: too much desapir, so God did know I would kno my own heart first not temptations. The ONLY temptations: anger and righteousness.