It was nice that he had such an obviously , now that I think of it, crush on me for a year.

He seems very sensitive and kind overall for real. Not just cuz he wacks off to me at night.

His presence while hubby treated me poorly was god sent for real. He was HUGE in helping me balance my daily life with hubby , traumas etc.

Truly, we never fucked. But I had a ton of flashes of it.  Even in his car...he he he....Maybe it was his fantasies about me I saw. Very nice and I would definitely fuck him one day. He is a worthwhile consort and never family. Amen. I am going to marry him in his next life: he will be my mentally ill sick wife. Hopefully, she wont be too tortured in hospital and like me, her traumas most severe will be from life simply. The ONLY reason we are ever mentally illl is usually from childhood with douche bags. Alan has much good heart but will finally be allowed to be crazy, simply, like we should ALL experience often until we never need meds again for eternity. He was so good to all the crazy people in toronto, that he gets his favourite case to marry himto help him out when it is his turn to suffer injustices very nasty. In fact, I wil be pretty tough with her by forcing her to have two kids though it is not clear her maternal instinct, like me in this life, will be very developped. Sure our chidlren will suffer because of it all but the love is real and they will forgive all along thanks to me.