Sigh: today is no good for quitting smoking. I may need the patch on top of 25 cigarettes a day. Isn't that wild? It is because I have been lazy with changing my habits. I just had a smoke, two in a row, just now instead of distracting myself with something better to do. The first week was fun. This second week, starting this week end, was way tougher. I am at 1.6 cigs an hour, all day, at the end of the day: my worst average in 9 days! Why is it so very tough? I did it cold turkey from 35 cigs a day to zero and stayed non smoker for 2.5 years. In 2000. Or around then. BJG was very impressed because one day I said I quit, and I did, the first time I tried. I read then that it gets harder to quit the more times you pick up smoking again after a break. For heavy smokers anyway. 

I have started coughing again. This morning was so awful. But I have to hang on to the bandwagon...I am so tired tonight I just light up a third smoke in an hour...I just put it out. I dont want to have to start all over again tomorrow morning...but I will have to. May Guru Rinpoche grant me courage and strenght to be distracted easily and focus on something else than smoking tomorrow...