I feel physically in withdrawal: I have a lot of reflux and I am super tired. My rate of smoke is a bit high today: 1.6 cig an hour instead of 1.4-1.5. The reflux is annoying. The day is gorgeous but I am exhausted. I keep thinking cigarettes makes you feel very ill, and so does quitting it. But to keep smoking would be suicide at the rate I used to smoke just over a week ago. Health and financial disasters. 

I watered the garden, emptied the dishwasher this morning, took two walks or three walks.  All this to avoid smoking cigarettes and be useful instead. I am very worried about the elections in the states in 2024. And in Canada for that matter. The obscene culture of money and violence and biggotery and mysogyny at the political discourse level is so frightening in the US. It is a true culture of fascism and hate. It is so very obscene and grotesque and scary. Hubby is taking dogs just now so I should go with them so as not to smoke.