...the fan blowing up my legs at my feet, on the couch. The sun behind my shoulders. And the total quiet of having the house to myself. BJG has changed. But maybe he has not that much. He has always been rude. But it has been bordering white trash since 2012 at times...He lives like he is retired but has no personal projects except seeing bears and walking dogs. Yet he says he is still tense at times. I am afraid he makes his decision not to keep his job daily. I dont know if it is sad. He refuses to take any criticism from anyone. So he does not change and with age, it gets worst. He may not be made to hold a full time job, like me? i just want him to be well and happy, at peace. I respect his choices and just hope he can live with the consequences. That is freedom of will.