I feeel sick. Not crazy fantaisie sick, but crazy stressed out paranoid.  I dont seem to trust anybody i dont know whom I need to work with (foot specialist, home renovations, plumber now etc). Hubby's crisis recentely has not helped and he refuses to hear about anything...but if I take charge and make a mistake (hole in the ceiling and roof floor), it is a HUUUUUGE unreasonable deal for him and he becomes super angry and stressed out. I am worried the home renovators are about as competent as the plumber (he asked me I think if he should continue drilling, and I said: follow your expertise).  i have to remember that people are not very competent generally it looks like when you find them on the internet.