BJG is such a darling. I so regret not having taken my meds for two years properly- it was aweful for him. He really deserves to be happy and relaxed now. I really am not a nice person , looking back.  How can I make up for it? I want him to be happy and calmly enjoying his routine. He deserves it after the mayhem, often, I put us through. It is very humbling to realize how aweful I can be and have been. 

We went for my orthotics this morning. He waited at the cafe, a very nice one, next to the bakery, with the dogs. I am very blessed with him. I used to think of him a bit as a hero. He really deserves the best.