Oh dear, how much more relaxed I feel now. I love it. I kow my reincarnation stories sound laughable to the western non buddhist mind, but many tibetans talk that way amongst themselves and dont find it strange.  Who knows (nobody!)! But certainly, the world is way more mysterious than it appears. And I do believe firmly in God. My madness, letting loose in it for two years, has really made me experience fantastical things. Dont get me wrong: I am super happy it is over and i~ now take my meds again. But what I have experienced is beyond beliefs. My mind was beautifully inspired and super blissful and compassionate at times. I suppose normal healthy minds can experience these altered states of consciousness through  meditation or drugs. Pot , a lot a lot of it, was my drug. Plus, the spurt of huge creativity outcome in books and even painting really were the cherry sundae of this wild wild dreamland mad life I had for two years.