I have to start meditating again. And drinking chamomille tea. I feel the tension in my body and it is truly not good. The last two months have been so very relaxed. It was glorious! But life is not just relaxed now. Hubby , the dogs and I went for a nice walk. Oh, that is the best to relax! I am having no smokes for the next two hours to slow down my smoking today. I really did a number on the pack in two hours this morning: half a pack! Oh Lord, I dont like how I am feeling in the last three days, since Billy's sedation meds were given to me for him next week. I REALLY must cope better with small and big stressors. 

I have not listened to the radio over the week end nor today. Instead, I listen to the hood's sounds. Our handy man came by this morning to ;pick up our xmas tree and load of branches from trimming the yard and bring it to the city works. He is very nice but a bit of a drunk. BJG employed him last year to rebuild our fence: super cheap, so so job, rather ugly at the back but we are fine with his work overall.  It is super nice to know a local handy man with a trailer: he used to be a neighbour but divorced his wife , both drunks, and went to live in a trailer with his beautiful dog. Community life truly and it feels good to know him and have him on board to help us - we are so ill equipped in tools and trailers and such. Billy was very excited to see him this morning and a long play with 14 years old whiskey followed in the yard. Lovely.