I just took the sleeping ;pill but it acts very fast. It is so hard without any mental support much from hubby who is too stressed out himself with his own issues daily. I miss my youth, when hubby just had to speak and I would deeply calm down. I wish I had a good therapist. WE both kind of need one. It is as if I am no longer allowed to feel fragile and ask for comforting words and actions from hubby when I dont feel well. Thats the hardest. Something broke in BC. We both did.