....I am crying. Hubby is so cruel and hateful deep down. He keeps saying everyone makes him feel like he is a bad man. I am afraid he has become one. I love him so but he does not love me some days. I never have days where I hate him. I am crying. I cannot bear my life going back to early years in bc with him. I cannot endure his cruelty and bullying anymore. I have become very dependent of him over the years. Since I stopped working. It scares me. He almost killed me for real in 2020 with car in his mad rage back then, once. He never admitted to it maybe once i thought i heard him confide to friends about it. He does not admit to any of his evil hateful outbursts. Everything is my fault and he demands i keep apologizing to him forever. I don’t know about what.
The Poetry Dervish