Now it is classical music on the radio. Whiskey is asleep with me by the couch. I fed them tonight. Hubby is super ungrateful generally. That is , in my opinion, his main obstacle to him relaxing, apart from quitting pot, and to his happiness. He really holds a lot of grudges against me which blind him to his Agency on his life and actions. He refuses to accept that I have always embraced the adventures he got us on throughout the years, the travels, saying I never got into them wholeheartedly. It is false. But he does not believe me when I tell him. Hence, looking back on our life, he is super unhappy. I left him many times and waited 16 years before marrying him because he always was kind of abusive when under stress.
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