So it goes. I am a kind hearted Deluded nut. And hubby suffered terribly because of my health. I have been good to no one and only brought sadness to everyone. I bet I die a terrible death of oral cancer or something terrible. Or that hubby dies before me. Which may be even worst. Hubby was telling me of all the times I had left him before we married, 16 years later. It broke his heart each time. I may have lived very badly after all but to be honest, I really did try my best each time even when I was completely sick. I don’t know. I can’t believe God would waste a life only in sufferings and delusions when there is so much love in my mind and heart. I am sober and sad about hubby’s sadness.
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