Nothing new this morning. I have the good company of Billy on the couch this morning. Hubby is upstairs. I have been truly horrible in many of my emails. Rage my friend, it was rage! Sigh. I truly felt like no one cared and it was true. I unleashedmy rage on my friends in my emails for not caring enough. Or at all! That way, I learned who could love me and who never did. It was so very hurtful to have no best friend show interest in my work, painting and writing when it was truly ALL I had in BC. Truly, if my best friends had no interest in my talent, they had no interest in me. It hurt like mad when I realized that: I got NO support from these two friends from my chidlhood. not a single word of encouragement for my writing. I told them to fuck off and that they were all incestuous with their children anyway! ah ah ah... I say horrible things for real when I am mad and enraged!