A cover of Bobby McGee is being played. I am sad tonight. I have just realized why i left BJG for three years and chose to live on welfare instead of with him and his material comforts for three years in 2006-2009. He gets scary. It is a kind of disconnect between reality of communication (what people say they mean and what he thinks they mean, their motivatiosn are, or what their inner psychology he thinks it is). He REFUSES to acknowledge what others mean when they explain it to him. His views then are often negative, animous, hostile towards him in his mind. He can be very scary and dangerous I have realized, once again, tonight. He has not an ounce of trust in me when I tell him he is unreasonable. He has apologized once in 30 years to me. He thinks everyone is wrong but him.