I am exhausted today: I have smoked too many cigs: 7 in 4 hours. Next one in 1.5 hours*. I dont want to forget oral cancer and lung cancer, not just finance. It will help me the best not to smoke as much. 

The music on Ici Musique is about 50% spanish from 12-3pm. Felipe femiou really loves his altino music. It is usually pretty good too. Not like the neighbours' bad tacky music in spanish. I feel like I am super negative again.  I am SUPER intolerant of strangers... It is something I have been working on for a year at least. 

*I am smoking my 8th cig in 4.5 hours. That is really really bad. Just three days ago I thought 4-6 smokes in 4.5 was bad! I dont know why smoking issues dont feel real anymore to me this week. They were so dramatic last week. They still exist but I am no longer that aware of them. I dont know why. A smoke like right now tastes so very good! Sigh. I LOVE this poison so very much. We really cannot afford this nasty habit that brings us nothing good except for energy and mental clarity.