He hangs out more and more with hubby but I still get him by my side here and there for a while. I dont walk him anymore on my own and hubby walks him minimum 4 times daily. Although I did take him for a walk with just me and him today, in Riverview. It had been a couple of weeks at least since the last walk just the two of us in the woods, not just in the hood. 

The fan is blowing and I am having an hourly cigarette. Today I did very well, like in the last 5 days, with cigarettes. I am so relieved that cutting back IS realistic and feasible. Cutting completely will take some thoughts and effort of prayers and free will. For the first time I am thinking it may be possible. But I have to be 'clean' by december completely of cigarettes if I want to not ever smoke that much again when hubby goes back to work in january. 

After 17 cigarettes in 12 hours, my throat is sore and I cough. It is never too late to quit cigarettes everyone says. maybe next week I can try to keep it at 25 cigarettes in 20 hours up (which is what i have been doing for 5 days so far, but for 16-19 hours instead of 20). Alternatively, next week's goal could be to smoke no more than one pack, 20 cigarettes, in 15 hours? More than one cig an hour is still too many cigs.