Sad nest in my chest and heart

with just me in it with my dogs

and the voice of a lama singing chants

and mantras

so patientely he sings on

sings on

sings on

who is this man I marry every day?

will he be turned into a monster again?

I pray he stops seeing me as his harshest critic

I live and observe him daily

I care for him 

and about him

I don't like where this is going one bit

his stubborn denial of any wrong done

his endorsement of violentely punishing the dog 

he did not hit him though

but he was roughing him up and yelling

it is when he stops to hear me warning him

about himself

that I feel the most unsafe with him