Hubby is back from his few hours of work and the park and went upstairs to play video games and smoke pot. He offered me some but I turned it down. Yesterday's fear and distrust  was so painful, I know sobriety is the solution! Habits are hard to change. Especially when you have a lot of free times and many bad habits because of it! lol

I have tried to bring my two friends J and Danny back into my weekly life through email but they are not interested. They are both healthy, productive and parents and married. Thank god I have BJG and have been with him for almost 30 years- I never had anyone else. God provides.