I indulged in a couple or more of baileys tonight before going to bed at 9pm.  BJG is asleep since midnight. IT is 2:16am. I am tired but alert. I am not clear about how it is possible, but brian and i have 5 or 6 chidlren. We may never meet them as they are in another reality. Billy is as close to a baby as I have experienced raising. One preganncy is revelaed to brian in this world: march 2019. He is a perfect angel with a handicap. The kid I told to that he was a glow worm. The dalai lama will meet him in her next life. And he will tell her who he is. He is as good as his grandpa terrien. All our other children are severely handicapped. I saw the picture of one and spoke to his mom, brewer is the last name. He had asked for a better mom than me in my belly when I told him I wascrazy. I drank heavily vodka that year. Brian wants to see him. He has a tough kamma that is for sure but what a happy boy with a better mother than me! sigh. The dalai lama will tell tibetans, the night she will be killed, that they distrusted their mother. Her death will shock them- it is a good story I think. They will fear retribution from Green Tara. The gelupa will not be very popular for a while. A small sect in riwoche will become HUGE. Basically, with the death of 15th, the tibetans lose their spirtual leaders for a couple of generations. Brian will play a greatbig POLITICAL role after my death as the 15th. He will make sure tibet is safe forever.