Remember although I never truly meditated more than a year in sitting position twice daily, I had super ;powerful ganja and my psych meds after 30 years old. Truly no drugs before than saved for what we know people slip in ladies coffees or drinks. This was my first psyhcosis so called: ecstacy said the ambulance guy. The drug sister, not the saint virtue! lol Sister are you still scared of me? You will give me such a sweet childhood I am forever thankful to Green Tara right now. Whom I have met by calling on my stove. My mind is beautiful sister. I can do no harm anymore. And the panther is khenpo. 

Vincent Van GOGH was not schizphrenic. I am tempted to say most people who have psyhcotic symptoms or are called schizo affective are, also, deep down, autistic and hated. Schizo affective is when you have been taught to hate everything that is loveable. You are completley fucked up inside about what to do when you see nice. You want to kill it. It could be killing bugs for a child. Having nightmares of killing people in your sleep. It ALL resolves once you have some MONEY, DEnnis....It all resolves by smoking pot. Pot THC helps relax the hypothalamus (?) and the flight of fight reaction is subdued. You get it? We are terrlorized by hatred as schizo affective.