I am sleepy. It is 7h30pm. Oh, I am very sleepy. Maybe I will have a peppermint herb tea and hit the hay around 9pm. Chamomille tea makes me puke usually. Especially if it is strong. Just like green tea. 

Billy is with me, the patio door is open and the faraway roaring of austin avenue is heard constantly. I have very little faith in anti anxiety meds (they can cause lack of sleep and depression so we will see) but I really want to try it. I never tried them. And the GP confirmed I suffer from anxiety, which took me about 17 years to figure out and speak to a doctor about. Anxiety is so unreasonable and mine is steeped in fear. BJG has absolutely zero tolerance for it which makes it very stressful, even more so. It is possible hubby will also try a go at sobriety. But he has not done more than a day here in the last 8 years. And with his denial of ill effect on his work coping mechanisms, I am not sure he will succeed. He still says totally unreasonable things at times and throws a tantrum with it. Once again, thank you sobriety to cope with everything.