I am aware that most people with such a serious mental health issue as me usually dont have such a cushy number of living conditions like I have. I am infinitely grateful to Avelokiteshvara, whom I trust and love and pray to. I am trying to start praying to Green Tara more wholeheartedly too but I dont even know who she is truly. A kind of universal Mother I think. I had very few teachings in buddhism, except for about 4 years in Toronto when I attended temples and in quebec too, where I took my boddhissatva vow previously and of course, living with the nuns in India to teach ESL.