I feel like crying tonight. I am so very worried about him. I must find inspiration in his family and try to reproduce some of the air of his back home in here. He never cooks or clean for us but he has been doing it since his return. To stay off buying pot. It was amazing. It looks like it is over. 

I was so grumpy today after seeing my gp who refused to give me référencées for brian I could give him when he is ready or low on the occasional acknowledgment on his part that he is sick from 30- 35 years of smoking pot heavily. It is impossible to get professional help here. I have been trying since it was obvious brian was losing his tenure, way way back in Toronto. No one is interested.