I feel so disappointed it is already Monday tomorrow. The week end went by too fast. B-52's music band was playing on KUGS radio channel. Now it is some alternative music chicks band.  I smoke like a debile mentale....extreme. I am at 2.5 packs in less than 12 hours....that is over 4 cigs per hour...Why do I smoke so very much? It is a mystery to me. 

I am so down at time that is passing..I just wish time could freeze for eternity and we would just hang in this moment of blue sky and sunshine all day. Every day. Like in California, when I was there for 5 months. Like when there is no war in ukraine. Nor in Canada. Nor in Europe.I want time to stop and peace to be felt all around the world, in everyone's aching heart or happy heart or grim heart. I don't want time to move forward tonight. It is too scary what lies ahead.